BIRTHMAS!!

It's my birthday biotches!! :D

yaaaaaaaayyy!!

Happy new year everyone out there in the blogosphere!! hope 2011 is good to us all, and the world doesn't end or some shit like that. :)

I am watching movies and eating junk food, so pretty damn good birthday so far. :) 40 minutes till midnight!!

Martian Child

So tonight I was baking a cake for the Christmas party tomorrow, and my dad starting watching my favourite movie Martian Child. I've got to say, I LOVE this movie. It makes me laugh and cry every time I watch it. There are so many good actors in it (John Cusack, Joan Cusack, Amanda Peat, Bobby Coleman) and the director is a freaking genius. I love the heartfelt, cute way the story is told. And as an added bonus, it was shot in Canada. :)
I'm not going to spoil the movie for you or tell you to like it or anything, I'm just going to leave you with this quote:

"Dennis, can I just say one last thing about Mars? - which may be strange coming from a Science-Fiction writer - But right now, you and me here, put together entirely of atoms, sitting on this round rock with a core of liquid iron, held down by this force that seems to trouble you, called gravity, all the while spinning around the sun at 67,000 miles an hour and whizzing through the milkyway at 600,000 miles an hour in a universe that very well may be chasing its own tail at the speed of light; And admist all this frantic activity, fully cognisant of our own eminent demise - which is our own pretty way of saying we all know we're gonna die - We reach out to one another. Sometimes for the sake of entity, sometimes for reasons you're not old enough to understand yet, but a lot of the time we just reach out and expect nothing in return. Isn't that strange? Isn't that weird? Isn't that weird enough? So why the heck do ya need to be from Mars for?"
-"David" played by John Cusack


and the trailer:

angry face (don't read unless you like reading people venting about the crappy things in their life)

my little brother is a douchebag and has no purpose in my life except to make it a living hell. god he's fucking annoying.

I'm really pissed right now. I'll try to go calm down (aka blast music and chant *only one and a half more years till I'm gone*) and write a nicer post about a happier topic some other time. hopefully. :)

please enjoy this happy music as an apology for the first bit of this post.
oh and this cute picture of a puppy. :)

guess what?

SNOOOOOWWWWDAAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!! That's what!! 8D

Top 5 Hangout Sessions (stolen from Curtis)

Top five people (alive or dead) to hang out with for a day (in no particular order):

1. Ellen Page
She's my hero and role model. I love her, and I think she's a really genuine, funny person who would be be awesome to hang with. We'd talk about Canadian things, music, and Leo DiCaprio. :P

2. John Cusack
Also my hero. I love his movies (Martian child makes me cry EVERY time I watch it), and every interview I've seen of him, he seems like a great guy. I'd love to talk to him about his movies and how he got his start in acting.


3. Felicia Day
I love her. She's so great. If I could manage to become as famous as her in my acting career, I could die happy. I'd talk to her about her amazing singing voice, her penguin purse, and other random things.



4. Neil Patrick Harris
If he weren't gay, I would marry him the second I turned 18. no joke. He's an amazing actor, he's hilarious and he also has an amazing singing voice. We'd talk about Dr. Horrible, HIMYM, and Nathan Fillion. :)

5. Harvey Milk
My biggest hero. He did so much for the gay community, and always with a smile. I really wish he was alive today so I could meet him for real. We'd talk about politics, and anything really because he seems like a really cool guy to hang out with.



So there ya have it. Who are your top five people to hang out with?

What would you do?

So tonight I was watching T.V. and landed upon a show called What Would You Do? It's a show that gets actors to go out in public and act out a scene that could happen in everyday life, and videotape people's reactions. It's actually pretty interesting. Today they had a boy and his father in a cafe, where the father started to freak out after his son told him he was gay. Most bystanders did nothing, but one women stood up to the man and told him to love his son no matter what. She talked about her two autistic children and how she didn't dream for them to be autistic, but she still loved them. It brought tears to my eyes, and I knew it would. What I was unprepared for was when they did the same scene again, but this time with a mother instead of a father freaking out. I started to sob uncontrollably, and then began to think "Wait, why am I crying? I know it's fake." I guess it was because I know this can and has happened in real life, but usually in more private situations. Why? Why do we spew so much hate? Why can we not accept change? Why do we reject difference? (I realize that was a bit redundant, but bear with me here) Maybe because the norm up till now has been to go with the crowd, and the crowd says homosexuality is wrong. Well, I say, FUCK the crowd! Who gives a shit what others are trying to shove down our throats? Make up your own opinions people, and let's try to love more, hate less.

FCKH8

The episode I was talking about

p.s. my play is not going on to Sears, but I'm going to be the stage manager for one of the plays that is going, and I'm psyched!

don't get too excited

So I was planning to write a blog post today about the result of the "whose play is going to Sears?" issue, but we didn't find out today, so no post about that.
uhm, uhm...
go look at my friend's new vlog!
that should keep you satisfied till tomorrow. :) (if it doesn't, I'm sorry, but there are no time refunds. :P )

oh and I'm applying to the Explore program, so fingers crossed I'll get to go to Quebec next year! :)

My Narrator Performance

This is it. This Thursday, we perform the play we've been working on for 2 months. Are we going to pull it off? I have no idea. Will we go on to Sears? maybe not. Will it be awesome? Yes. :)

So, if you know me and are in the area where I live, come to the theatre on main st. at 7:30 to see two amazing shows that have a one in three chance at being my high school's contribution to the Sear's Drama Festival 2011. Tickets cost $10 at the door, and are half price the next night, if you want to come see the other two shows that take place on friday night, same time, same place.

Hope to seem some familiar faces there! :)

I'll be standing in that spotlight on Thursday. :P

oh and here's a link to a comic that kinda sums up the play I'm in. I'm the narrator/interior monologue of the girl.

Favourite Things (cont.)

     Alright, before I continue my list of favourite things, I'd like to talk about my day. I'm writing this now because I have two ISPs* today in addition to my spare!! so I only had to go to one class today! And that was English media, and most of the people I don't like weren't there today! It was great fun. :P and I talked with my teacher about how unfair my English 3U teacher has been with projects, and she completely agreed. :) so yeah today has been great.
     Tomorrow is Semi Formal and I'm totally psyched for it. :) I get to wear this pretty dress my mum bought for me last weekend, and go and dance and hang out with my friends! It will be the first high school dance I've ever been to. Which is a little pathetic, but also not in a way, as I've had better things to do with my time than waste money on silly dances. This and Prom will probably be the only high school dances I ever go to, but I'm fine with that. :)

*a spare period that is given to students when the teacher is absent from class, but they're only allowed for gr. 11 and 12 students.

On to the favourites list!

6. Favourite Book (that I've read recently)
     Stolen Innocence by Elissa Wall and Lisa Pulitzer
     This book is about Ellisa Wall's life in the FLDS church, becoming a teenage bride, and breaking free of the oppressive church and lifestyle. It's a heart-wrenching true story, but also very empowering. I think everyone should give it a read and learn more about the FLDS church and the terrible things that happen to children in that community, so we can try to stop it.

7. Favourite Food
     Perogies or Noodle-wrapped shrimp
     Perogies are mashed potato and cheese wrapped in a pasta sort of dough and boiled. They are DELICIOUS, especially when dipped in sour cream. side, but soft and scrumptious on the inside.
     Noodle-wrapped shrimp are so much better than regular shrimp. They're hard and crunchy on the outside, but soft and scrumptious on the inside.

OM NOM NOM!

Delicious!

8. Favourite Subject in School
     Chemistry/French
     I love doing experiments and watching reactions between acids and elements. It amazes me how something can catch on fire just by touching another substance like water. It's great! Oh and the gummy bear experiment that our teacher showed us last year was amazing! You can watch a video of it here. You melt potassium chlorate and then drop in a gummy bear and watch what happens! :) I love chemistry because all of the work is pretty straight forward. You watch stuff happen, and explain why it happened. It's pretty simple. I'm really good at memorizing things, so that also helps with my love of Chemistry.
     My love of French class is rather obvious to anyone who knows me well. I LOVE the French language. With a passion. It's just so beautiful and hypnotizing. I am good at writing and understanding some French. I still have a lot to learn, and I'm very eager to learn it (as nerdy as that sounds). I am (hopefully) going on a trip to Quebec this July to do the Explore program, and I'm really excited for it. :D

9. Favourite Drink
     Coffee
     I love the smell, the taste, everything about it. It has to be made right though, otherwise it just tastes like hot water. It helps get me up in the morning and act like a regular person.

10. Favourite Colour
     Purple
     Not sure why, it just always has been. I have many purple clothes, and I think it looks quite good on me. :)

My Favourite Things (part 1)

1. Favourite Movie
Juno
I love this movie. It's a heart-warming movie about a teen mom who finds adoptive parents for her baby, tries to get back together with the baby-daddy, and keep up with school. It's a cute little movie, and I could watch it over and over again forever. It also has my favourite actress of all time, Ellen Page. She is amazing.

2. Favourite T.V. Show (as of this year)
The Office
A witty, satirical look at office life, with some romance and bigotry thrown in there too. My favourite characters are definitely Jim and Pam, with Kelly and Ryan coming at a close second. I only just starting watching this show a month ago as it has been heavily recommended to me by my friend Curtis.

3. Favourite Band/Artist (by amount of songs I like by them)
Feist/Regina Spektor
They are both amazing indy-sounding musicians, and I love almost all of their songs. Regina's songs always make me happy or sad depending on whether I'm listening to the lyrics or not. Her lyrics are amazing if you listen to and analyze them. Feist will always be one of my favourite artists, and if you want to know why, look at this post.

4. Favourite Smell
Freshly-baked bread or other baked goods
This smell is sooo good. My mum makes the best baked goods, and she makes them probably once every month at least, more if it's Christmas time. It reminds me of my childhood, hugging my mum, and feeling secure and at home. :)

5. Favourite Place
Blyth Festival Theatre Stage/Phillips Studio
These are the places where I've had the best times of my life. Acting, goofing around, haunting and more. I hope to one day act on the Blyth Theatre stage as a part of the Summer Festival.

UPDATE: Guess what??!! My hope of acting on the Blyth Festival Stage is coming true!! Next summer, Alligator Tears is going to perform on the Main Stage! :D so excited!

That's it for now. Tune in, in a few days to read more of my favourite things. :)

The Big Fight

Yesterday, my sister and I got into a big fight about the biggest thing we disagree upon: her boyfriend.

Now, you have to understand that me and my sister have shared a room since we were little. We're really close. We talk about almost everything. All of this started to slow down 2 years ago when she started dated this ugly guy who was kind of a jerk. They're still dating now.

I have never understood what she saw in him, and maybe I never will. I always looked up to my sister, and thought her to be a strong, independent woman, who didn't want or need a man to "complete" her. And yet, she fell prey to this guy's flattering comments and attention. Also, he is always showing up at my house unannounced and calling at least once a day. This infuriated me, as I felt he was taking my sister away from, and as if he was invading my personal space. Because of this, I began to hate him. Passionately. I would glare at him, make snide comments about him to my sister and parents, and beg my parents to not let my sister date him. None of this made my sister break up with him, and it only made our bond crack and crumble under the pressure of my hate, and Becca trying to ignore the problem, or taking his side and being mean to me. I used to dream up scenarios of them breaking up, or him hurting my sister in some way that would make her realize he was not the guy for her. It was terrible, mean, and hateful. But I just wouldn't come around. At one point I started to hide his shoes. He seemed to not notice, or at least he or Becca never said anything about it. One day, I was leaving for school and Becca was going to walk with me for the first time in quite a while. All of a sudden, who should show up, but my nemesis. He was driving her to school. She was tstill getting ready so I got my stuff on and angrily walked out the door. As I put on my shoes, I saw his ugly shoes and the hate bubbled over. I grabbed them and threw them in the trashcan outside the door, then proceeded to walk to school. On my walk I realized this was childish and stupid, but I didn't care. In my mind, he was stealing my sister, so I put his shoes where I thought they (and him) belonged. My sister later found me in a hallway at school, her hand in his, and bitched me out, calling me immature and a brat. He finally dragged her away, still yelling, and my face burning with shame and embarrassment.

So yesterday, we finally had it all out. She yelled at me with my mom standing there, telling me to respond, but not defending me. I was silently sobbing, and had decided it was best not to say anything or even look at her. Before this blew up, she had called me fat and hit me across the face. I couldn't believe my mother was doing nothing. Finally my mum stepped up and told my sister something (I thought) I had told her in confidence. She told my sister that I thought it wasn't just her boyfriend that I hated, it was all outsiders who arrived unannounced at our house because I was unsure of how to respond to them. I finally broke down and told her that I already felt insecure and unsure of how to act around normal people at school, and home was my escape. By invading our house, her boyfriend was making me feel as if I couldn't be myself or relax. I had to put on an act of someone I wasn't, just to benefit this intruder.

We got out pretty much everything we needed to, and I apologized and promised to be nicer to her boyfriend. Then we hugged and she accidentally grabbed my boob, which made us both laugh. :)

I'm really glad this happened, and hopefully it makes our bond stronger.

Wicked field trip and catching up

Yesterday I went on a field trip with some fellow drama geeks, to Toronto to see Wicked. We had supper at the Eaton Center and then went to the Canon Theatre to see the show. There are not enough words in this world to describe how amazing it was. Even though we had kinda crappy seats, I still had an amazing time and the technical effects were AWESOME. There was this dragon head and torso and wings at the top of the stage and it moved and blew out smoke occasionally. There was also the Wizard's metal head contraption that moved and lit up and was generally freaky amazing. :) I'll try to find pics of them later.
     The singing was fantastic, although everyone was a bit off at one point or another. It didn't matter though, because the rest of the time they were fantastic. I have so much respect for all the actors, dancers and singers in the show. They were great. :)
    At the end of the show we gave them a standing ovation (they totally deserved it) and then the actress who played Galinda asked us to sit down. She then asked us to donate to an organization that is researching cures for AIDS and to a fund that helps out people in the theatre business. I gave all the money that was left in my wallet.
     So basically, last night was amazing. Today, however, was not.
     We got home from Wicked at 1:30am, but I didn't get home until 2 am because my brother was having car troubles and it took a while for him to come get me. So of course, I was tired, frustrated, and freezing, and started bawling my eyes out for no reason. Anyways, when I finally got home, I fell into bed and slept until noon. I got my dad to call the school and tell them I wouldn't be there for the morning, but I forgot to set my alarm to wake me up earlier than twelve to get ready and clean out my backpack before going to school. So my dad ended up waking me up, and I rushed around shoving a sandwich down my throat and grabbing my backpack and coat. I was late for third period, but not by much, and I didn't care anyways, as it was my first time being late this year. It was nice to sit down and read for 20 minutes, and sort of relax after all that running around. But then came the shitty part of the day. First, I learned we took a bunch of notes yesterday, all of which I had to find a way to catch up on, and we had to do some definitions on our own. Then our teacher bitched at us for 20 minutes about not handing certain things in with our essay rough drafts that SHE HAD NEVER TOLD US TO HAND IN! I later learned that everyone was pissed about this. Then she only handed back 5 of the 23 rough drafts, and mine wasn't one of them.
     In Math class, we had an ISP, thank goodness, but I didn't finish all the homework, and I'm only just grasping the idea of this new graphing thing we learned.
     Then I had rehearsal which went quite well I think, at least for me and Cavan. Michelle and John are kinda sucky, and don't know their lines, but whatever.

I'm really glad I got to see Wicked, I just wish I hadn't had to miss school to see it.

UPDATE: I found pics!

Mother-fuckin' dragon

the "Wonderful" Wizard of Oz (It MOVES!)

Drama/Music party

Today at my school, there was a Halloween party put on by the school band, and they invited all us drama geeks to join in too. We did all the decorating, we used our room, our sound system, our lights, and they made up a bunch of dumb activities that they kept making us participate in and yelling for us to shut up so they could explain what was going on. It was pretty lame, and awkward. Most of the music people are the social outcasts (even more so than drama), and geeky gross kids. That sounds harsh, but it's true. A lot of my friends are in the band, and they're awesome, but shoving us together tonight was just awkward and annoying. I kept wandering around the room, trying to hang out with the three people who I'm good friends with, but I felt really awkward and alone a lot of the time. Also, a bunch of the guys (almost all) are creepy and gross. And they kept making dirty jokes. and then this one guy (who I'm in the play with) was singing, and it was sooo bad. It was kinda sad really. I felt bad for him.
     So yeah, the party was kinda a bomb. I think I'm most ticked about it being sucky because the last time we had a drama party, it was hilarious, awesome and so much fun. So this was a big let-down I guess. I was also psyched for it because this week has been really stressful and I needed a good break. It just kinda brought me down.
     My friend is having a trick-and-wander thing on Halloween night that I thought was just gonna be a select group of friends, but it turns out she invited these two gross annoying guys to join us too. It pissed me off, and I think I'm gonna bail on it now.
     Also, this sucky party really made me miss my yoco friends, because they wouldn't ditch me at a party. And they'd be so much fun to hang and talk with. God I miss those guys. I need to get my license and move to Clinton. :P I wish.

welp, that's the end of that downer post. :)
I promise my next one will be more upbeat and happy.

EDIT: I also got my own computer yesterday, so I should be able to update more frequently now. Or at least, I'll try to update more often... :P

Pogo- Best remixes EVAR

So I was scanning through my facebook today and came across a video my brother had posted. It was called "Upular" and was a remix of sound bytes from the Pixar movie, "Up" and it was AMAZING!
     So I watched it again on YouTube and looked at a few of the other videos by the same guy, Pogo. They were just as great. :) at least, the newer ones were.

Here are a few so all of you can watch and love them. :)

Upular

Expialidocious

Toyz Noize

Alohomora

Alice

And here's his website to check out:

Pogo website

Pogo's logo

Significant Others

Alright, so here's the deal. Why do most humans feel that they need to have a boyfriend/girlfriend, and if they don't, they're "incomplete"? If I want a boyfriend, I'll go look for one, or tell the guy I like that I like him. It doesn't make me a loser or incomplete to not have a boyfriend.

And why do we pick apart boy-girl relationships, and come to the conclusion that if a boy and girl are hanging out, they must at least be friends with benefits. Why do people do this? Can't we all just leave other people alone? As shocking as this may seem, guys and girls CAN be friends without banging each other.

And for those of you who are in wonderful, committed relationships, stop flaunting it! It's annoying! You're happy, we get that. It's wonderful, really, but most of us are also trying to find that happiness, and you're not helping us by saying things like, "Oh my boyfriend/girlfriend is so great!", or "We totally love each other!", etc. It makes me want to be bitchy and mean, and sulky. and that's not good for anyone. If you occasionally mention your boyfriend/girlfriend or say something like, "I'm so happy I have him/her." once in a while, ok, fine. That's great. But don't shove it in my face that you're so happy you could die, or PDA right in front of me.

I myself, would love to have a significant other. Someone who will love me, and tell me I'm pretty, and protect me from crazy hoodlums/rapists. But until I find that special someone, I'm happy being single.


I think this song sums up my feelings pretty well.

:)

Highschool Traffic

 *WARNING* this is a rant. it is not meant to be taken completely seriously, but it's still a valid opinion.

     alright, so imagine that the halls in a typical highschool are like typical roads. 

Pictured: highschool

     You walk on the right side and turn when there's a space for you to turn, right? Apparently I'm one of the few people who understand this concept, because people have just been walking wherever the hell they feel like this year. Especially in tech hall. That place is hell to try and negotiate your way through. People keep standing by their lockers in clumps, making everyone walk AROUND them, and standing in the way of you getting to your locker/class. It's so frustrating.
     Highschool sucks, and a lot of us don't want to be there, I get that. That doesn't mean you get to walk really slowly or shuffle your feet ALL THE WAY TO YOUR CLASSROOM. That REALLY pisses me off. Pick up your goddamn feet!! It's fucking annoying. Please stop. You're not going to your execution or even a stupid family dinner. Maybe you don't have somewhere to be, but I do! So, to continue with the road metaphor, if you insist on walking slowly, please, "pull over" to the side of the "road" and let the other "drivers" pass you. Then wait until the "road" clear out. Then you can "drive" as slowly as you desire.

kthxbye.

update on life

Alright, so I'm sorry I haven't written since Saturday, but I've been busy with school work, and moving and everything. 

So, this week has been pretty uneventful... 

But here's a breakdown of it, because I can't think of anything else to write about right now.

We had a meeting about the play I'm in and our first rehearsal is tomorrow. The one guy who I'm supposed to kiss in the play is being a douche though, so that's always fun... T__T

Math class has been ok. I'm understanding the concepts, I got a 95% on our last "quest" (cross between a quiz and a test), but today I thought I had this one question figured out and I was all, "YAY! I understand it and I'm ready for the test next week!" Then my friend who didn't understand it asked the teacher how to do it, and it turns out I was doing it wrong. SO that pretty much shattered my confidence. 

In English class, we're writing expressive essays. Mine is about how drama is under-appreciated at my school. I showed my teacher my planning sheet that had all my arguments and examples and stuff on it, and she said it was great, and she said she couldn't find anything wrong with it. So that made me happy.

English Media class we have just been writing notes and discussing stuff, so that's been kinda interesting.

and that's been pretty much my week.

Oh and Glee was amazing last night. I'll write a different post about that later. :) see, by writing this I figured out what to write about! :P

Leslie Feist: Role Model, Talented Musician, Guest on Sesame Street

 So this is an essay I wrote for english class. I was going to post it last week, but I forgot and posted it on facebook instead. so here it is now.
enjoy. :)   



     Feist is the best musical artist of the twenty first century. She works very hard on her songs, her music videos are amazing, and her music can change your point of view. She is one of my favourite artists.

      First of all, the way she puts her songs together is genius. Her voice makes Susan Boyle sound like a cat being strangled. Feist never uses auto-tuning or synthesizing to make her music “sound better”, and she definitely doesn't need to. The lyrics of her songs are as masterful as Robert Frost's poetry. She plays the guitar and the piano, and adds violin or fiddle music to her songs occasionally. She puts a lot of thought and effort into her songs, and not one is ever hastily shoved together just to help fill up an album.

     Feist is one artist who I will always willingly watch the music videos of. Unlike most popular artists of this century, who feel the need to put sexual images, drug references, and alcoholic drinks into their music videos, Feist's music videos are always innocent and beautiful. For instance, the music video she made for her song “Mushaboom” features her singing along to her own song, and then flying out the window to chase after her toast that flew out the window ,minutes before. She then goes on to play her guitar while hovering and having people dance behind her. It is a really cute music video that is suitable for all ages, unlike most pop or rap artists' videos.

     Feist's music can change you mood or even your point of view. Many times when I'm feeling upset or depressed, all I have to do is turn on Feist's song, “I Feel It All” and I'll be singing and dancing before very long. When my friend, Curtis, went to a Feist concert, he told it had been, “Like a religious experience. It was so amazing!” Feist's combination of genius lyrics, amazing vocals, and great melodies can change not only your mood, but even your entire attitude about life.

Feist is an “anti-folk” music artist. While many indie bands write songs with whispered vocals and the occasional synthesizing and auto-tuning thrown in to be “ironic”, Feist uses instruments to create an entire new world of images and thoughts. As if all of this wasn't ebough to prove how awesome she is, she's Canadian and appeared on Sesame Street. This is exactly why she is -by far- the greatest artist of our time.

Muppet Videos

Today, I was hanging out with my friends Katey and Liese, and they showed me all these hilarious Muppets videos. so I thought all of you out there in the interwebs should see them too. :)

The Muppets- Popcorn
The Muppets- Bohemian Rhapsody
Beaker's Ballad
Carven der pumpkin
Ringing of the Bells

Call Me Barb

I GOT THE PART!!!!!!!

This is the same face I had when I was told I got the part. no joke.

as I explained in my last post, I was auditioning for a part in a play called "My Narrator" and today i found out that I got I wanted, the part of the narrator called Barb!!
I am so freaking psyched. I still don't know who the other girl in the play is, but the two guys who were cast I know, and I get along with one of them, so that's good I guess. I am really good friends with the two directors (that's not why I got the part, I got it on talent, and there were a bunch of other people auditioning so I was really happy I made the cut) so rehearsals should be fun times. :)
     The one thing that sucks about this is that my friend, Jenette didn't get the part she wanted. Which sucks because she's awesome and has seniority, so I think she deserves it a bit more than the gr. 9 who might be getting it. Also, she wanted to go to Sears really badly, so that sucks that she can't go as an actor. :(

I'm so relieved that I have this off my mind now. I have been stressing a bit over it, but now that I know I'm in it, I can go back to just stressing about math. :P

That's pretty much all I wanted to say, so yeah.
Oh and I am doing a happy dance right now. :)
so here's some dance music so you can dance too!
dance music 1
dance music 2
dance music 3

*untz untz untz*

I remember...

This is an "I remember" poem that I had to write for English class. I was quite happy with the end-product. :) (it's about my childhood)

I remember the way we would run outside on a chilly December morning, so excited and gleeful, dressed up in so many layers that it took us half an hour to get undressed again. We would grab fistfuls of cold, fluffy snow, crushing it together to make snowballs, and then throw them at each other, squealing when we got hit.

I remember the way I could feel my blood coursing through my body at 90 miles per hour, right before I took a handful of the slippery, bright orange hand soap and ate it.

I remember the disgusting, anti-bacterial taste the soap left in my mouth for the rest of the day, making everything I ate taste horrible.

I remember waking up on Sunday mornings, to the loud Christian worship music that my dad blasted through the speakers of the old stereo.

I remember the musty smell, the nearly unbearable, sticky humidity, and the comforting clutter of the attic, that always seemed to hold hundreds of possibilities for new games and hiding places.

I remember the way my brand new baby brother felt; like a soft bundle of curiosity and love.

I remember running downstairs, full of energy, early on Christmas morning, and feeling the outside of my bumpy stocking, trying to guess what Santa had left me.

I remember the delicious, warm, gooey pizza bagels loaded with mozzarella cheese and pepperoni that my mum used to make us when we got home from school.

I remember stepping onto the bus for the first time and seeing what felt like hundreds of scary, disapproving faces staring back at me. 

I remember hugging my mother's warm, comforting leg for dear life when I was introduced to a new kid my age, who looked just as terrified as me.

I remember hearing the loud, tuneless, incessant cry of crows who sat right outside my window, and wondering why they sounded so angry, so early in the morning.

I remember the feeling of awe and jealousy I got when I saw my friend's gigantic, play room that was filled to the brim with beautiful dolls, brightly coloured board games, brand new, shiny toys, and even a pink, plastic hairdressing table.

 

12 Pet Peeves

1. People being late
     Ok, so I can excuse being a few minutes late picking someone up because of traffic or something, but 15-60 minutes late?? That sucks. I'm only 15, and so I don't have my license or anything, so when I need to be picked up at a certain time, I need to be picked up at that time. It sucks being stranded somewhere, having to wait for a ride. Also, I dislike it when people are more than 5 minutes late to classes. Seriously, get your act together.
     I personally hate being late, because I always feel so awkward walking into a room/building/gathering late. Everyone looks up at you and stares until you finally get settled, while you mumble half-assed excuses the whole way.
     Unless someone died, you or someone close to you (physically or emotionally) was physically hurt, or you were in some sort of crash, there's no excuse to be late. So get a watch and be on time!

2. Clingy people
     Why do people do this? Are some people just not loved enough as children, so they feel the need to cling to people who clearly don't want their company, but are too nice to say so? Do people like this really just not understand that they're being clingy? Really? Gah. This just seriously aggravates me. It puts me in the awkward situation of whether I should be polite, or finally get some peace and just tell the person to leave me alone.
     This is another one that I personally hate doing. I am constantly wondering whether I'm being too clingy. This may be the reason I don't have any definite best friends... hunh. oh well. I have many awesome people I can hang with who don't get fed up with me. I'm good with that. :)

3. The sound of nails being clipped
     eeuuugggghhhh! I HATE this sound. So. Much. It's like nails on a chalkboard to me. Bleh.

4. People misspelling things/having poor grammar on the internet
     One great thing about the internet is that we can see what we say and can edit it/think it over before posting it. So please, for the love of god, check your grammar and spelling before you post. Chat speak, I'm ok with. The occasional mistake that you missed, and correct later when someone points it out, I can accept. But really, if you don't know the difference between "except" and "accept", when "your" and "you're" are supposed to be used, the difference between "they're" "there" and "their", how to spell simple things like "Wednesday", how and when to correctly use capitols, or how to properly use apostrophes, please go back to school and learn these things. It makes teachers disrespect students and young adults as a whole when they see people abusing the English language like this, which is quite annoying to the rest of us who do know how to speak and write like educated human beings.

Sadly, this is very true.

     

5. When people put their finger in their ear and wiggle it around to get earwax out or to itch their ear
Do I really need to explain this one? It's gross. Please don't do it in front of other people.

6. Insulting someone and calling it a "joke"
     It's not a joke to that person. Not when you make a comment about their hair, or their choice of music or clothing, and then brush it off as a "joke". It's a bitch/dick move. Don't do it unless you're positively sure the other person is fine with you doing it. Doing it because you want to get laughs, or because you're having a shitty day and need to feel better somehow, is not a good enough reason. There is no good reason for doing this, so just don't.

7. When ppl bitch about stuff and then don't do anything about it
     If you don't like something, at least make an attempt to change it. for example: #4? I try to correct people's spelling and grammar when I can and without being too rude. It's hard to do this nicely. But I'm trying.

8. When ppl don't try to do something, and just write it off as "too hard"
     Come on people. Try things before you give up on them. Seek help from someone who is good at the particular thing you're struggling with. Don't judge something by comments from friends/family. Try it for yourself!

9. When people judge other people for their taste in movies/music/tv
     Some people like watching Firefly. Others enjoy iCarly. What does it matter?? You shouldn't base a friendship on someone's taste in music/movies/tv shows. Everyone likes different things. Accept it and move on. Don't bitch at people because they like listening to the JoBros or JBiebs. Let it go. Oh, and don't bitch at someone for watching/listening to something you yourself have never watched/listened to and never intend to watch/listen to. Watch/listen to it first, then make a judgement.
(This is exactly why I don't trust anyone's opinion on movies but my own. I have to hear/see things before I make judgements on things)

10. P.M.S.
     It gives me mood swings and I have to apologize to people afterwards because I snapped on them for no reason. It sucks. and makes you cry a lot. If you are a boy, you're damn lucky to not have to go through this.

11. Being yelled at or getting in trouble with people in authority
     This sucks. I always feel like a terrible person, and it usually just makes me hate said authority figure, or be pissed for the rest of the day. Bleh.


12. When skinny girls say things like, "I LOVE eating!" or "I'm such a PIG!"
     Let me explain. I am not a skinny girl. I'm of what you'd call an "average" weight. I have always been conscious of my weight, and what/how much I eat when I'm in front of other people. So, I really hate it when skinny girls get to say "I LOVE eating/food!" because, see, I can't. I could, but then I'd feel as if people were secretly saying, "Ya, we know you do...". They probably wouldn't, but I can't help but feel insecure about things like that.
     So please, if you're a skinny girl who loves to eat, that's great! You're confident about your body and shit, so yippee. But please just keep it to yourself. You make someone else who maybe isn't as skinny as you, feel like crap when you say things like this.


welp, there ya go. A look into the mind of Beth. :)

Fuck You!

    Now that I have your attention... :P But seriously, it's the name of a song by Lily Allen that I just heard recently and love.
     This song is about all the narrow-minded views that people have that make them hate other people, and how she hates them for it. She's basically telling people to f*#$ off and keep their hatred to themselves.

I personally don't agree with the whole, "we hate you" part of the song, but I do like it's general message. I love how she makes all her songs so upbeat and happy sounding, but if you listen to the lyrics, there's a lot more to the song than you thought.

Lyrics:
Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
So sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor

So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist
Who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get,
Do you get a little kick out of being small minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval you're after
Well that's not how you find it

Do you,
Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control of it and it's really distasteful

Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
and it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you

You say,
You think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
Cause it's people like you
That need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
and it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch


Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you (repeat)

(these lyrics are a little off, but whatever)

Listen to it here:
Fuck You- Lily Allen (youtube)

Assemblies, Arguments, Auditions, and Arts Council

Alright, so today we finally had our lame welcome back assembly, that for some reason they insist on having every year. It was alright I guess. There was a video about sports and clubs and stuff, a competition between our principal and vice principals (which is always fun to see), a lot of chanting of "WE BLEED PURPLE AND WHITE! FIGHT! FIGHT!! FIGHT!!!" (which is apparently our new school chant or something... personally I'd book myself a doctor's appointment if I was bleeding purple and white, but maybe that's just me), and not a lot of mention of drama club or the arts (as per usual). But it mean that first period was shortened by about a half hour. But that also meant it shortened second period, which is when I have my spare. :( Which kinda sucked, but I got over it. :P
     At the assembly, one of the gym teachers (the hot, young one :P) got up and started talking about starting an "athletics council" which would be a few people who would work with student council to find more ways to shove sports down our throats. yaaay. I found this annoying and unfair as there was no arts council for drama, music and art. So I brought this up to Trick, the drama teacher, when I was on spare (since I hang out in her room on spare usually), and she agreed that we should have an arts council. So at lunch, when all us drama geeks were gathered in the drama room, she brought it up and we all agreed it was a good idea. So she said that we should probably have one person from drama, one from music, and then they could keep in touch with the art teacher to see if the art department had anything going on (they usually don't). She then asked who would be interested in being the drama rep. My friend Danielle, put her hand up, as did my friend Jenette. Britney, another girl in drama, also put her hand up and said that since she was best friends with the Student Council president, it would be a better decision for her to be the drama rep. They discussed how they would decide who would be the rep, but as with most things in our drama guild, nothing was really decided.

     Another interesting thing that happened at lunch was Danielle blowing up at this girl Emily, who has a reputation for having a big mouth. Recently, Danielle broke up with her boyfriend. Apparently, a lot of people found out about it, and started asking Danielle questions. She was understandably a little angry, since she had not told said people about the break-up and did not appreciate questions about it. When she asked them how they had found out about it, some of them told her that Emily had texted them. So today, Emily started to talk to Danielle and Danielle told her about the situation and said she did not wish to talk to Emily, or even be near her (I'm paraphrasing, so don't take this as a direct quote). It's always fun to see people be put in their place. :P

     This year, our drama guild has decided to put on three (maybe four) plays that will be presented in November. One or two of these plays will then go on to compete in the Sears Drama Festival in March. Today, I auditioned for one of the three plays called, My Narrator. I was really nervous, even though this is my third year in the drama guild and I've shown my dedication and talent many times. Although, I have been turned down for parts I've wanted in the past, I am hopeful that I'll earn this part. I had memorized the audition piece, and I acted it out (sort of) to the two directors of the play, and our drama teacher. I think it went fairly well, and they were impressed that I had memorized it. The rest of the auditions are scheduled for tomorrow and Wednesday at lunchtime, so I'll have to figure out what to do for lunch for the next two days (most of us drama geeks usually hang out in the drama room for lunch). I'll prolly go home. Or hang with my non-drama guild friends in the caf. meh.

So that was today. oh and I actually didn't mean for the title to be an alliteration, it kinda just turned out that way... :)

My name is Beth, and I'm a Gleek

Ok, so there's this show on Fox, and it started last year, and it's called Glee. It's about a highschool show choir, and how they go through highschool, while singing about their lives and stuff. It is hilarious, and brilliant, and really cute. :) I love it, and I've had quite a few of the songs from the show stuck in my head so I decided to post them on here.

Hello Goodbye- Glee

Say A Little Prayer For You- Glee

Halo/Walking on Sunshine

Oh! and the show starts season 2 on sept. 21. :D

Drama Club

So today we had a meeting for our drama club. We had a bunch of Gr. 9's come to it, and a few new older students, but no new gr. 9 guys. There was one new gr. 10 guy, but he didn't really want to act. I'm auditioning (on Tuesday) for the part of Barb, the narrator in the play, "My Narrator" (I'll go into detail about the play at a later date). As my luck would have it, there are about a kajillion other girls trying out for this play, and there are only 2 female parts. I'm not too worried, seeing as I'm in gr. 11, and they always pick seniors over juniors in our drama club, but there are two girls my age who are trying out for the same part as me. So I'm slightly nervous, but I still think I'll get the part. I'm working hard on memorizing the audition piece, even though I don't have to. It's half a page long, and kinda dry, but I have the gist of it memorized, and I do have till Tuesday, so I'll probably be fine.
But yeah. that's about the most interesting thing that happened today.
Oh! and our drama club is planning a trip to go see Wicked in Toronto in November!! I'm so psyched for it. :D

Dorkosity

          Sometimes I just feel like such a dork ya know? and not in a good way. In a, "I can't believe I just said/wrote that. How old am I? 10?". frig. If only I felt this way BEFORE I posted/said something stupid. Thank god for the delete button. But some things, I just need to say, even though they sound dorky. So I cringe and squirm after I write/say them, but I can't delete or go back on them.

            So, to summarize, I may say some stupid dorky things, but please forgive me for them. I swear I'm 15 (nearly 16) and not 10. :)

But sometimes being a dork is ok. Like when you're showing someone how much you love them. Then you can be as dorky as you want. Or if you're trying to cheer someone up, or make them more confident.

The Beginning

      So yesterday I started gr. 11. yaay. My classes are: English Media, -spare-, University English, University Math. My first class was ok, we got the usual welcome to this class, welcome back to school, no cellphones, blah blah blah. But the teacher is pretty cool. All we did was a small quiz to find out how much we knew about news and stuff.
      Second period I had a spare so I texted my friend Shelby who also had a spare then, and we met at the drama room. Then we met our other friend Jenette who also had a spare then. She needed to go to Valu-Mart (a grocery store in town) to get an application and apply for a job there. So Shelby drove all of us to Valu-Mart in her car and Jenette got the application. Then we decided to drive around our town since we had a bunch of free time left till lunch. Shelby then asked if we wanted to go hang out with Bri, who leaves for a bible college thingy soon (she graduated high school last year). We said yes, so we drove to her house and knocked on the door and rang the doorbell a few times. No answer. So we went to her bedroom window (it was on the ground floor) and knocked there. Still no answer. So we decided to walk around and see if anyone was downstairs and couldn't hear the doorbell or something. But what we found downstairs was an open door... So of course we decided to go in (We're really good friends with her and didn't think it would matter if we walked in unannounced). But she wasn't home. No one was. So we realized that we had basically just broken into her house... woops. So what did we do? Videotaped ourselves breaking in and creeping around. :P cuz we're dorks like that. Then we taped a sorry message in case she got freaked out that we'd been there. Then we left and went back to school for lunch.
      Third period I had English. It was ok, but all the English teachers at my school seem to love doing all that "get to know you" crap. So our teacher showed us a slide show for about half an hour about her life and hobbies and shit like that. Then she told us to write an essay that was less than two pages. And that's all she said. People started to freak out, because we're almost never allowed that much leg room with projects or anything in school. I mean, we're just stupid kids right? I was fine with it tho. As was my friend Haley (who posted her essay on her blog.  It's really good. You should go read it.). I wrote about the theatre and acting and all the shows I've done or seen done. It was ok. It turned out that all the teacher cared about was learning about what we're interested in, what kind of grammar/spelling things she needs to address in the class and how we write. Today's class was freaking boring so I won't describe it.
        Fourth period was Math. I have an ok teacher who pretty much just dived right into the unit (Trigonometry) and gave us homework half way through class. It's mostly just independent work in that class so far, just like last year's math class.
      And then I went home. and after that life was boring. so yeah.


P.S. my friend was not mad at all that we broke into her house. She found it hilarious and even edited the videos together to make a movie. :)

Alligator Tears, and real tears too

  So this summer I was involved in a theatre group (which I'll call by it's short form, yoco- sorry uncle creepy) and we put on an original musical that was an hour and 15 minutes long that was called Alligator Tears. It was written by my amazing friend Britta, and we only had three and a half weeks to rehearse it. It was crazy, but we somehow pulled it off. I had an amazing time and made some new friends, but now that it's over I'm really upset and actually spent about an hour crying about how I won't get to see these people again for a while... so I love to reminisce about it.

So I shall now list (in order of importance) the awesome things about yoco.

1) The people
            I cannot believe how many awesome people we had this year in yoco. There were quite a few newbies (I've been in yoco for three years) and they were all pretty young. The oldest was Libby at 18, but she didn't really count since she was so awesome and outgoing that it felt as if I'd known her for years. The rest of the newbies were at least a year younger than me, with the youngest being 3 years younger. It made me feel old, but I was also happy that I had seniority for once.
           I also got to hang with some rad people I already knew (Natty, Curtis, Reuben, Haley, Katey, Liese). It was so awesome to be with everyone almost everyday for three weeks. We're like a family, and we have sooo many inside jokes. Inside jokes that no one at my high school will understand because none of them went to yoco this year. Which really sucks, because no one will understand why I'll suddenly burst out laughing after someone mentions an alligator or a pinata or anything else that reminds me of  yoco. Ah well.
          Our writer -Britta- is an amazing person to work with. She's hilarious, crazy, and sooo freaking talented. She not only wrote the entire play, but all the songs and the music, co-directed it, and did most of the choreography.

2) The Play
      This musical is hilarious. And brilliant, and sad, and scary and happy and everything you want out of a musical really. wait a few years and it'll be on Broadway, winning tons of Tony's.

3) Getting to watch 4 LEGIT plays for free
      One of the perks of yoco is that we are in a town with a theatre that has a summer festival every year. So, we get free tickets to all the shows they put on there to make us more cultured or something. It's awesome tho. We don't get great seats (usually the back of the balcony) but it's a small theatre so it doesn't really matter. The shows this year were incredible.

4) The Costumes
       The costumes we got to wear in this musical were freaking AMAZING. I wore a poodle skirt (that was hand-made by a LEGIT costume designer) a scarf, a white shirt, and a sandwich board that had different signs I had to attach to it in different scenes. It was so much better than the costume I had the year before which consisted of a yellow terrycloth jumpsuit (no joke) and a yellowish, brownish bonnet. WORST. COSTUME. EVAR. geez.

It looks awesome, but it was a pain in the neck to manoeuvre with.

          The other costumes in this play were great too. We had a lot of cross-dressing since only two guys had joined yoco, and the costumes were so awesome. The play was set in the fifties so lots of poodle skirts, dresses, suspenders and sweater vests. :D

5) The inside jokes
even though probably no one from yoco will read this, I'm going to post all the inside jokes I can remember so I don't forget them.

Petticoat petticoat? That's a bad case of petticoat.
Or in Rachel's case: That's a bad pase of cetticoat!

Crump crump crump!

WHAAAT???
THE A-TEAM?? NO I'M MORE OF A M*A*S*H* FAN!
ABOUT 5:15!!!

But maaaaaaa!! I'm twenty years old!
(Henry will always be remembered as a small english boy with a pom-pom hat and a melty chocolate bar in his hand)

Britta: You know, surprisingly enough, I'm not a good climber.
Us: WHAAAAAAAAATTTTT!!!???
Britta: I know, but don't be fooled by my rippling muscles, wind-blown hair or supple climber's body.

There is a secret gator in a racecar with sunglasses, driving gloves and a scarf on, that Jigsaw has sent to kill your family. Now start singing quietly and imagine you can see him driving his car from far away to right past you. Sing louder as he gets nearer.

Cray Cray Majay...

Totes! Ma! Goats!

I want you to go from square 1 to square crazy!

Liese: "I can never take Beth anywhere because she gets gravy all over herself."
Beth: "Hey!! Well, ok yeah, it's true."

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p.s. I LEGIT love yoco. :)